Monday, August 31, 2015

The Box

For me personally, one of the best things about moving is getting outside your comfort zone.  Thinking outside the box. Growing as a person. Looking back at the last two years, I am so thrilled to be in a different, better place both physically and mentally.

Labor Day weekend will be two years since I left Alabama and I really haven't looked back. I was so burnt out there. I was emotionally exhausted from all the game playing and back stabbing by people I trusted and thought of as true friends. I would do anything for anyone and that is probably my biggest flaw. And unfortunately my girls have inherited that trait. I don't something for someone hoping for something in return.  I do it because you're a friend and if I can help, I will.  Very simple.  Too often though, I started to feel used by some of the most disingenuous people I have ever met.  Horrible people who hid behind Christianity and fake Southern sweetness (you know the type... the ones who use "bless her heart" on a fairly regular basis).   In fact, I hardly ever ask for help (another flaw of mine).  So if I was broken and in need of help, it would have to be pretty bad for me to seek some type of assistance.  And being let down by a friend is the worst kind of betrayal there is.

Yup.  I was in a pretty bad place two years ago. However, I am so happy to be where I am now. stronger and a thousand times happier.  Hell.  The entire family is happier.  KJ will admit it was tough for her to leave Hoover. She was born there and that was the only home she knew.  However, she's learned so much about herself during this whole process. She is so incredibly mature and confident at such a young age. She's not afraid to push herself and think outside the box. And, hopefully, she's learned a few things from watching what I went through. I hope she and Taylor will continue to be strong, independent women and a good friend to all.  I know they will be disappointed by people they met but I hope it doesn't beat them down the way it did me.

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